akin to a bottled memory
Surrendered
like to the Pontic sea
only then would i have been;

Free

Hero - Billy Gilman

There's a flower
In the smallest garden
Reaching for the light
There's a candle
In the darkest corner
Conquering the night

There is amazing strength
And a willing hand
There are victories
That you've never planned
There's a hero
In everybody's heart

There's a fire
Inside of everybody
Burning clear and bright
There's a power
In the faintest heartbeat
That cannot be denied

Go on and trust yourself
You can ride the wind
Your gonna take your dreams
Where they've never been
There's a hero
In everybody's heart
Go on and trust yourself
You can ride the wind
Your gonna take your dreams
Where they've never been
There's a hero
In everybody's heart

my june hols/study break have been like this:

• first week was spent zombie-like - waking up at 4 in the mrng and slping at 1 in the mrng.
• second week was spent catching up on lost slp, mourning over horribly screwed up complexion due to severe lack of slp
• third week was spent gg out almost everyday, mtg up w different grps of ppl. afterall, it's the hols, how can don't go out w friends?
• and now, at the fourth week, i've finally started serious studying - 50% of procrastination, 30% of trying to find lost notes and what not, 20% of really mugging

haha see, my mid years is so screwed! and to make things worse, mummy's in malaysia spending time w my grandad and dad's on some sch trip at indonesia. haha, w no peidu mama to nag at me to study, cmi la!

ok anyway, pre-u sem was uber fun. did i mention we were stuffed w food like pigs abt to be slaughtered? SG 16 WHOAH! they were a really fun group to have. haha crazy bunch of ppl. we did a billy-bomber dance around some coffee table whilst singing home (to sound more patriotic and pro-pap so to speak) when there was this formal dialogue thing gg on at the audi. oh and we also clamoured onto the stage to take a group photo. had the joy of warping vera's face (and many others) every time she wanted to play quadrapop. bunked w syab, had fun w her killing ants and trying hard not to eavesdrop on her conv w alvin hee. all in all, pre-u sem was a gd experience :D

sushi on sunday was gd, so was ice cream chef! (i got mixed up between the two and kept on saying ice cream creamery and island chef haha) but don't you think they sound nicer that way? ok anyway, we were actually billed for only one table at ichiban, but gd ol SAMITARIAN (wenru and his impressive chimchim england) us went back to foot the other half, so as to accumulate good karma for A's. so guess i'll be expecting 4As and nothing less! (my foot)

you say that whenever you miss me, you'll look at pictures of us

but do you know, all i have to do is to close my eyes

and the image of you will flood my mind

even when i don't want them to

really TGIF!
had a break off from sch, which i think everybody felt was desperately needed.
went out w squishy to catch a movie, had lunch w his mummy and just basically slacked the whole day away. wish we were able to spend the entire day tgt more often, but then again, it's the rarity of such days tht makes it all the more sweeter <3

another happy thing was the peedoublelew results! really thank God for the uber good results the class has. all those days perfecting our keilburger recipe, interviewing people and staying bck in sch to add the final touches to our written report, presentations waay into the night really paid off (: thanks to syaaf, charissa, poi and jimtangjimtang! the entire journey was a great one, i think oweing to our cohesiveness and our love for fun as a group! tho of course there were some trying times, when stress kicked in due to having to meet horrible deadlines and when it seemed that we weren't able to ever perfect our work, we did it, thanks to our charlie's angels spirit :D (shall not elaborate). really miss working w the group, won't mind doing it all over again, seriously.

neway, just to sidetrack a bit, the slo camp was real fun. got to learn alot more abt myself, i'm half complaint and half withdrawn (btw, being withdrawn doesn't mean tht you're, well withdrawn, it just means that you care put the morale of everyone above all else. we were split up into two huge groups, and further divided into sub groups. at the beginning, everyone thought the workshop would turn out real boring esp when we saw huge chunks of it on our timetable. but it was great, partly thanks to our wonderful instructor sheena (some cute and crazy butch) and the weirder than weird people in the group. the games that we conducted ourselves were like damn fun! i particularly liked the rope one, and the soccer one. anyway everyone was so sad when the workshop came to an end. but still, i enjoyed every minute of it. can hardly wait for the sandcastle building, get ready your spades and buckets guys! :D

ultimate frisbee was fun, but super tiring! haha, the phobos J2 team made it to become the winner of the losers table :D it was damn fun la, esp when renee used her laser beam vision to score a penalty. can't wait for more on monday :D

on some days, we feel carefree




on some days, we feel constipated



on some days, we feel invincible




on some days, we feel seductive

the cny didn't feel like it at all, with so much work to do and all the humdrums, blah blah blah, the usual chagrins of life.

on a brighter side, today was fun! and there will be chingay and v'day next week to look forward to (: yipeedidodaah!

all i desire, a heart after you

ohmygosh. these few weeks had been mad mad mad for me.
what with the never ending homework, tests, assignments, dateline is the last word i wna hear right now
coupled with cny performance, talks abt some stupid competition, chingay and slo. oh God, pls give me strength. and of all weeks, my guitar chose to break one of its strings ytd. thankfully it gives me reason not to practise over the weekend :D

and everyday i'll walk beside him, for i know he leads the way

how fast a month seems to go by, and christmas was the best thing of all (:
really thank God that a few of my friends managed to make it down for the services
i especially liked the sermon preached on the last night, it really reminded me of the reasons why christmas is so special
candlelight was the best moment of all


spending time at northlight school helping out with their orientation was also fun. it was a test on my basic trilingual skills. i sometimes had to repeat instructions to a game in english, chinese and basic malay, but i got to make many new kawans there (: not to mention, charissa, shuxian and i got to relive our childhood by doing window art painting :D are these pretty or pretty?


starting school was the best thing that happened this year for me. was bumming around nonsensically at home most of the time doing nth towards the end of the holidays. good to be back in school to catch up with friends (:

sent shara off at the airport on thursday, along with mok and diane. kind of sad to see her go off once again, esp the part after her checking in, seeing the last glimpse of her, and knwing that the next time she'd be back would probably be a yr or two later. but still, i'll keep up to my promise and email frequently, even tho she finds mt fashion sense 'amarish'.

what's a little bit of distance between friends?


mok and i trying to romanticise each other, and she, failing to quite pathetically :D


nice little heartshaped watermelon that got our interest at some korean buffet <3

dear diary,

i vow to do up a loong post on my fantabulous class which i'm missing so terribly much (along w lots and lots of pictures!) when i come bck from kettling tmr!

XOXOX

spent the week making christmas cards, helping daddy paint around the house and baking stuff with mummy. haha made cereal cookies for the cell. haha i only intended to do abt fifty at first but got carried away :D in the end i had plenty of extras for everyone else. mummy said she'd help me make a beeg christmas pudding for cell next week (: the joy i realise isn't entirely in eating anymore, but rather in making cookies, and seeing yr friends eating them happily!

met diane and shara ytd at town. we chanced upon this craft store at plaza sing. i honestly could have stayed there for an hour! the printed papers there are soo pretty! got a few (: diane left early for church (or rather she was alr ovr an hour late) so i shopped on w shara, we went ovr to art friend &i got this huge packet of wooden hearts (: oh i also got this heart necklace for her too! (: we spent abt 10mins after tht trying to find the restaurant where she was mtg her aunt for dinner. some imperial treasures thing. haha silly girl. was tempted to go into kino but i had to leeave! i'm mtg her again next weekend, hopefully tgt w jernan or mok!

went to casuarina for prata w squishy. got my usual mushroom cheeese :D (oh the joy!) a rather funny incident happened there. a girl down there started waving at me and calling my name, but i didn't rmb her at all. she then just started laughing hysterically w her group of friends. is tht weird or is tht weird?

just read jane dearest's blogg. 21 essays due for literature. oh my, to think i was happily slacking away the holis in oblivion. manicure, i need another one dear! haha i was forced to remove mine just five days after for stoopid guiter.

friday, come quickly! (:

hooray i'm bck to blogging. but for only one reason. cg's thinking of starting a blog, &i don't wna be the only louser (i still rmb who i coined this term with) on the list who hasn't blogged for months.

just finished a double choc subway cookie tht my neighbour brought bck for me. it was great! and tht would be the word i'd use to describe my day.

okay end of post! :D

I CAN HARDLY EXPRESS ME JOY!
I'M MTG DIANE TMR FOR REAL! (:

haha ok, had actually bumped into her on the bus few days ago, tgt w her ahem :D
we were exchanging tips on braces colours, seriously la, pink purple and blue combi is the best, she should take it from me! after all i had 4years of experience in wearing braces, which goes to say tht i had the luxury of choosing rubber band colours 4x12 times. i liked the really colourful (had my eyes closed while choosing the colours haha ) rubber band combi too, tho it nearly drove my dentist mad :D

neway, i missed her so much! dianee's one of the bestest friends neone could have, &forever will be one of mine! :D

one week delay in bday post due to being emo the past few days :D one of the few occasions whereby i have the mood to upload pictures haha.

isabelle (:
not isabella, umbrella or bimbsabelle. misterbelle's only for joel and nobody else!
squishy's been squished by me, so hands off (:
07S415, MJ187, SG 16, TM 9, W457, 4A3, the affiliates never end
my mummy said the internet's a scary place, so i don't think i should say nemore.


cellgroup

abel adeline alyssa woo alyssa ong amirah ana andrew bertrand caleb candice carmen charis clayton colleen daniel david eric gerdine glorianne hannah harry jane pang jane yin liangyu lynnette marcus porkchop rach kim rach ong rach lee sam liew sam phua sam see sarah wan shirley wirley syaf theodore vanessa lee vanessa tan victoria wan zhen yan lin yi ying ying hua zee


songs reveal wht words can't put together


ultimately, for all my loved ones to be saved (:
& to find nurture tht mustard seed
& to be less vertically deprived, less horizontally deprived
& have a high metabolism rate to pig out more heh
& tht brown forever21 dress tht renee &i are just dying for!!
& to be swept away by a knight in shining armour :D(a rather farfetched cliche)
& to get promoted i did it by god's grace!
& for squishy to remain squishy forever &ever till forever meets no end!
(with child-like faith, i'll pray!)


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tough riddles, really tough.
for yr viewing pleasure
cheap thrill
cheaper thrill
LALAA!



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